Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Today my work out was SO intense. My elbow and my hip have been bothering me- & The irritation of the pain wasn't helping the endurance to my work out. Some how- I kept pushing myself, and my trainer Carlos, Kept pointing out my bad posture. When I'm training with him, I must- Suck my stomach in- widen my shoulders- puff my chest out- keep my head up; and depending on what lifting position- I must Keep my Elbows to my side- Bend my knees- Not bend my Knees- Keep my Stomach Flat and sucked in- widen my grip. Ect Ect...
As soon as he decided that he kicked my ass enough during the lifting state- he then persuaded me towards the main mirror room- where I do my abs. I started with upper abs- then moved to lower; which are a commutation of kicks- leg lifts- scissors- and stand stills. I huffed and moaned- and held my breath- blew my breath- quenched with pain- all while sucking my stomach in. From a distance you can tell that was being worked out of my ass- in that you can hear me yelling and moaning from the pressure Carlos put towards abs.
"Are you trying to kill him.. Ha-Ha-Ha".. This older man asked Carlos just as soon as I rested from one of the agonizing Scissors. "Ha-ha, No- he hasn't pissed me off yet- You'll know when I want to kill him.. Ha-Ha-Ha"... My trainer responded with a giggle.
Just as soon as Carlos turned from my vision- I felt my eyes Watering up. I tried with all my power to not show emotion..
And so- When my training was done- I drove back to my apartment- listening to my favorite CD- by Kanye West- Crying.
I got home- where a paper plate flipped upside down was set on my dinning table. On it- it said.. " No Matter What "Diet" your on.. you ALWAYS can eat these!!.. They have 4g of Protein!! :) .. <3 Abby.. " My baby Abby Brought me three Bean Rice Balls from our favorite Sushi Bar... I LOVE YOU ABBY.. That totally made my day.
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Friday, September 9, 2005
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Friday, September 2, 2005
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the Crack inbetween my nut sack and leg is sweaty
Thursday, September 1, 2005
Looks like I might head to Merced this weekend. Since its a 3 day weekend and all- I'mma need to head back Sunday Night- or maybe Monday morning- I got invited to a Swimming Party that this old bud is hosting. He says "theres gonna be fuck worth of hunnys".. I guess that means I'mma have my dick sucked. * Inside Joke * & besides I might need to Make an appearance 2 Juan's Lil Thing on Sunday. U know its soo Weird. He Invited me. I don't think I intimidate his puck ass anymore. Its either that- or he knows I'm what makes his shit cracking. (J/k)..
I talked to my SIster. SHAnnnnTe.. Thats another reason for me to head to merced. I'm supposed to hook her up with my Shit. Since I aint got 2 much use for it- I rather put it 2 good use. Shes my nigga folks. even though her thoughts aint Cracking- Shes still cool. I like the fact that she laughs at my Stupid ass Jokes and Comments.
New Layout*.. I guess U can tell that I get really board on every layout I have.. I think Im already getting tired of this shit too!.. Okay I gotta go.. its the 10 spot right now!>.
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DAY 8-10
Sunday, August 21, 2005
*spcial tip for any book owner addicted to CRACK CONCAINE: you may not feel purer immediately. Stick at this for a couple of months to see full lifestyle benefits.
I couldn't do this- I had a Rockstar at work along with JambaJuice with ENERGY & a cup of coffee.. Eek I'll try this again some other day- MAYBE on a sunday.. haha
I'm expecting my parents & my sister To Come ova today- so I woke my Punk ass up at 6AM- Packed my Surfboard- and Drove my Starved happy ass to Santa Cruz. * Surfed until about 11:30PM.. It was Fun Check it out .
Jonas Jansson, a courageous young fellow who has agreed to follow the "The Books" injunctions to the letter. In this, his first week, he has already been arrested once, and lost his girlfriend. Go Jonas!.. * Jonas will be discussing his adventure during the year on "Thiswebsitewillchangeyourlife.com" be sure to compare his experience w/ yours!!!
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13:56
Thursday, August 18, 2005
song in HEad.. "My Hump" by Black Eyed Peas...
Shes got be spending.....
I think I might go to the gym- I don't have SHIT to do.
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My Day & continuation with
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Lets See.. I'm supposed to Chill W/ Abby Tonight So that She can accomplish Day 5-".. I wanna go to the gym- and soak in the hot tub- then hit the Sauna.. I should probably head there now. I'm expecting this Dude to come around 7PM to check out some "Stuff" I'm selling.. (gotta Hustle your Shit)..
Okay.. I'm pretty Buzzed- & I'm just at a half of Beer!.. I'm soo Not used to Alcohol anymore.. Hahah...
For day 6- the "The Book" states... "Today write the opening sentence of your debut novel"
Heres Mine!..
Who the Fuck am I?. and Why the hell am I the person I think I am?. I wish I knew 20% of my own questions. That Way I wouldn't have to bother anyone to figure out the answer. For the most part- I do Know the basics.. I bite my nails- I often often brush my teeth at night (but not always)- I looooOVvve attention- I'm picky when it comes to relationships- I hate it when people try to figure me out. It ERks Me when people act like other people because they think that-that's the only way in getting into their friendship w/ them. I love it when people express their talents. I enjoy being around successful people.. I don't believe in Animal Cruelty. ... * in order to find out more about me, you'll need to buy my book. Whenever I get it published- or Written for that matter!..
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::Mass social experiment::
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
My "picture" for Day FIVE
I didn't know where the heck I was gonna go Day five at- I ended up at walmart where my stupid ass walked in the bathroom with a camera- Duhh... I bet people thought I was some sort of Freak or something.. It was a quick in N Out thing.. I wasn't feeling the Dare too MUCH..
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Monday, August 15, 2005
Today The "The Book" says to work out your globtratting plans for the rest of your time on earth by printing this Map out. ..Color each country by the following color codes..
Green Been there done that.
blue Intend to go this year.
Yellow Intend to go before I die.
Red Happy to never set foot there my entire life.!!
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Sunday, August 14, 2005
For Day Three the "The Book" says to get rid or something you like.. so I got rid of my turtle- I started to dislike the fact that I had to change the filter every month or so.. this lead to me to hate the fucker..
- But I once liked him- He's been with me though my entire move out here to San Jo. He first saw me when I moved in with my sister- He witnessed the arguement between my sister and I- which led me to move out. I welcomed him to my new apartment when my sister was gonna abandon him- he experience the solo life with me- he saw the days I was happy- ......the days I was sad. He was the one who first to saw me when I woke up- & the last to see me before I slep. He was there when I was naked in the flesh- He was there when I was Fully dressed at my best- and during my worst. He saw me having sex- eating breakfest- watching TV- Masturbating- getting high- Getting Drunk- He'd hear me cussing- Praying. He heard my lies- My goals- my dreams. I fed him- He gave me company. I cleaned his shell when it was moldy, and in return He winked at me when I stared at him. - So techinally even though at the end I hated him- We've been thougha lot- so this still counts as throwing away something that I like... my turtle
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Saturday, August 13, 2005
Today gaze at everyone wondering whether they might be the one true love of your life, the one destined for you and you alone- and whether you might be passing them by forever. Act in eonsequence.
And so- my journey continued on with Day two - I searched and searched for that one true love that "The Book" said I shouldn't pass along. I started in South San Jose- drove to Gilroy- moved along Pacheco Pass to Los Banos- and then followed along toward Merced. *note* One thing I did learn about myself is that I'm one Picky son of bitch!.. I swear to god- I'm never gonna fall in love!.. at this rate I should start planning on adopting just to start a family! My adventure didn't end until I came back home. I decided to head to Mission Cafe- where I spotted the one. I knew she had to be that one true girl that I couldn't surpass. Immediately I acted eonsequence.
She was studying on her laptop- and the only approach that I could come up with was...
"Hey you mind me asking you a question.. ?.. Did you know that you could possibly be my true Love??"
She shyly laughed and seemed interested in why I asked such a silly question. I quickly introduced myself and showed her "The Book" - in which she recognized and heard about before. Not to my surprise she was married- had already Graduated from Santa Clara University- and was going to start teaching in East San Jose. What was her name you say?.. "Stephanie" .. However she didn't want to be posted on my site- so I wasn't able to take a picture with her.. But let me say She was Very Beautiful. I bet she was thinking I was doing some sort of Porn Deal or something- and thought I was some Loony..ha ha.. It was all fun though.
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My Poor Pets Have Been Sitting In Their Own Shit
Saturday, August 13, 2005
I had the wierdest dream in the world. So I have a fish tank with a Turtle and some tiny gold fishies. About a month ago, the filter clogged up because its montly cycle was due for a change up, & I;ve been kinda lazy to buy a new filter- my poor pets have been sitting in their own shit for quite a while. U know- Something that's been bothering me- but always seem to lay off and forget about. Well the Dream I had last night was Freaking CRAZY!.. I guess I about to change the filter & clean the tank- I turned on the aquariam's light & I my fishes all Deformed and oversize. Some mIssing Eyes.. I had this one Fish that Was mummified but was still swimming. This one Fish had its Jaw ripped off. The water was decaying U turning into this White Powery mold Shit that was spreading all over my walls... - It was Fucking Nuts.. I could feel that I wanted to vomit in my sleep.
Anyways What Great way of starting my weekend!- I gotta go to work nOw.
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::This book Will Change YOUR life::
Friday, August 12, 2005
The Book will only help you if you want to be helped. Welcome it into yourlife, and who knows what, or who you'll be by this time next year. Ignore it, and your life will continue in its current orbit. Now, of course, it everyone will be in a position to follow the instructions to the letter everyday, and some are more demanding than others. But make the effort and your reward will be a year to remember, the first of many. Do not Underestimate the difficulty of following the Book. Its dictates may seem arbitrary, but only thus can we counter the arbitrariness of fate. - Author Benrik. "The book will change your life"
Me and Abby decided that this book was worth wild to Read & POST up on Pitas so that everyone else can follow along- and all of our lives will probably change. Do I belive in this?.. I dunno yet. .. Lets see. It sound fun! I'll be posting up a new task that YOU must perform everyday for an entire year (365 days) No credit to me.. This is right out of the book. Word for Word.. all credited towards Bentik, Author of "Works of Literary Distintion at Commonsense Prices" ThisWebsiteWillChangeYourLife.com
Day 1: Warm Up..
as this is your first day, you should warm up with an easy task that will only change your life a little bit.
Choose one of the following options.
Preform a striptease ( In private )
Triple-tie your shoelaces.
Learn to play "Chopsticks" on the piano
Increase your typing speed by three words a minute
Jaywalk in a pedestrian zone.
Set all your clocks to exactly the right time
Whisper a white lie when no ones listening
Fantasize about you partner
Use a different thickness comb
Say "yo" insead of "hello"
Hold your phone up to the other ear
tell somebody your middle name
Try a new sandwich filling
Leave work five minutes early
bookmark a new website
Give your Genitalia pet names
Decide which one of your toes is pretties
Insult an insect
Go on a one-minute hunger strike
View My "Day One" Picture
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My Breath Stinks!
Friday, August 12, 2005
Meanwhile- I've been looking for a room mate. My Bud Joe Got fired from work- So He wasn't able to pull through w/ the whole" Room Mate" thing.. Its alright.. things work out for the better. ( I guess)..
SO I've been talking to this Girl on myspace for a while now. Its one of those.." I wonder if she left me a message on myspace" sorta Deal.. I think she feels the same way. It cool.. I'm bonding with different People. Shes Pretty Cute too.. Too BAD shes from MERCED.. .. Ahw..
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* Jose I don't like how you are handel'n the situation- I wish U could reason w/ her & go on the trip.**
Sunday, July 24, 2005
What a weekend. God damn- Merced is a hott ass place 2 be right now. I spent my Hot Friday Night w/ mom momma & her church friends at the Merced County Fair. My moms intentions were only to see KC & the Sunshine Band. I have got to say- If Britney Gets a lot of shit performing & Singing. I KNOW!- This mutha Fucka gets his good share. He can't sing for shit- His voice is Scratchy- Its sticky & strainny!.. He can't dance- I think is best move he threw at us was his little "hip Thrust".. Haha.. Good times..
As I was driving to My Class IN Frisco Today I got a call From Mrs. Simmons. Um-hum.. I was waiting for this Call. It was about the whole- Alcapulo Trip.. I already had a ticket paid for & reserved for me. Well- I just called her back right now- I had to do what I had to do. I can tell that she wasn't liking the move I threw her. All I gotta say IS- "for only four payments of Ninety-Nine-Dollars & sixty Four Cents.. " - oH-WELL.. Whats Done is done.
I have a photo shoot On Tuesday at 2PM. I already took the day off- I'm so fucking excited Can't wait to see my check!!.
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Making that Money
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
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Fortune cookie..
Friday, July 15, 2005
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Summer CLean Up
Thursday, July 14, 2005
Work was cool today- I learning how to just focus on myself & not other people. I tend to fuck up my entire day by thinking of what other people are doing or saying around me. I rather not know now. I went to the Gym W/ Eric Today. It was crackin. This is the thrid week that We've been hitting that Bench Press.- My Wrist Hella HURT. Shit.. I think I might need some Supports. (Or something) ..
- Awww. U GUYS.. I'm So Sad Right now. I MISS HIgh School. I just got a MySpace Comment from Jose Garcia ( He was a Froshmen when I was a Senior) saying that he wanted me to Help his Senior Class w/ homecoming).. ISn't that Just the cutest thing U ever Heard?.. Aww.. I wish I could Do It..But According to Reality.. It might not happen.. I told responded w/ "I'll do what ever I can sorta Deal".. Shit I don't even go visit my mom any more- what makes class of '06 think that I'm gonna go for them. He said he'll pay me whatever.. *hummmmm... *.. I'll think about..
Note to self.. Lunden Is HOTT..
Happy Birthday MOM!.. I LOVE U.. This weekend I'm having a Bar-B-Q with the guys here at my place.. GOnna Cook some Hotlinks- Caren Asada..- Shrimp- Corn Rice & BEans.. SHoooot... Sunday Is gonna be hella Fun.. My CLass is gonna be very interesting- Me & Mia Are gonna Take some head shots around Frisco.. I'll post some up as soon as I get them..
Alright I gotta get back to Cleaning.
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FaceWash!..
Monday, July 11, 2005
I started talking to Patty again. I called her & apologized for ditching her. It wasn't fault I turned off my phone- & lost contact w/ her. Too bad it was at the exact time when she confested her love towards me. Shes Such a sweet heart. She has 4 turtles.- While I have only one. Her last name coinceidently is Lopez- we also have other shit in common..But I sure U guys don't care.
Just came from the movies w/ Abby Sacha- Dasha- Carrol- & scott??.. We saw--.. Um.. Dark Falls OR something.. I fell a sleep during the middle of the Movie. Stupid Abby didn't tell me until after the movie was over that It was based on a JAp Movie. - Go Figure-. *ABby*.. Hum.. I so Fucking Tired. BYE. SOrry for the Spelling Errors.. Fuck it.
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Kaiser Permanente
Sunday, July 10, 2005
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:::Anyways.. Whats DOne is DONE:::.
Wednesday, July 6, 2005
I finally got my PHONE!.. I had to do it.. I got paid early this week- & I must have received my raise because When I looked at my account- I almost shitted my PAnts!.. I went down to Cingular Did what I had to do.. yadda-yadda-. & got.. The First Lady Razor Phone.. WHA!!.. Yep.. ah.. I'm SO iN love with my phone... I think we might make LOVe Tonight. Edgard was the First fucker I called. Hes been bitching because he can never get a hold of me.- Now I swear I'm never gonna be home. Now that people have a way of contacting me- SHit.... Kiss my Lonesome self good BYE.. Its alright though..
So I got this job offer the other day at work. Tannen Engineering- IS the company. SO far- Its just a One Man THing..- Which Means This Fool IS banked up on some cash. Mark ( the guys Name).. confronted me at work- being that I do all this purchase requesiets- And asked if I wanted to join his self made company- Being his Right hand man. I've been thinking a lot about this. I should be working on my Resume to email him tomorrow.. But just to think.. IF I get hired with this fucker- That means Whatever he makes.. I get 50%.. 50%!!!!.. Thats a shit load of money. Hes willing to tain me and show me roaps. Hum.. THis Is good REAL GOOD!.. I glad something Came down the line. I think I over powered NVIDIA. I already Know everything in my department. THeres no higher level above this. I need to GROW. I think this Opp. Is the best thing to happen to me. Hopefully I get it. I mean- I have faith- I pray every Night Asking god to Direct me the Right Way. - the ONLY way.
I just came in from the Gym like 3 hours ago. I had a good ass work out. - Came home turned on my Music BEats- Started to Wash The dishes. THen All of a sudden. My door opens.. THe GIRL who I thought left me for her Husband was right at my door.. AWW HELL!!!..
So anyways. I need to start My RESUME & take a shower.. Bye Bitches.. DOn't hook urself on what I say- Its just jibberish.
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OMG
Wednesday, July 6, 2005
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Stinky Ass
Sunday, July 3, 2005
I love my life. I got rid of drinking/ and smoking/ & the extra baggage of friends- I have all the bills paid- I pass my two classes that I took in Spring- My apartment is clean- I eat healty- work out.. and I think i'm at another level with friends here in SAN Hoe. I am able to breath again. for a while I though that I was going to crash because of the stress of life. U know.. I'm fucking so fortunate that I'm able to experience shit early in life- so once I have my head together later on.. I won't have to worry about bullshit. I excited to start school in fall. Summer is cool. But- because I don't go to school- I'm not around people my age. Right Now I'm more into- Work & the gym... My family have been giving me positive remarks about how my body is forming.. Looks like my stripping career is on a go..
Alright then.. The shower is waiting for me.. I better go Wash my Sack Now.
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Posting Up
Sunday, July 3, 2005
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"Start Off on the Right Foot"
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
I Dunno.. We'll see. I'm started this Modeling Thing.. I think its going great.. I take the train every SUnday To San Fran.. for this Class. I'ved Learned alot.. I like it.. Hopefully My mood changes tomorrow.. I'll keep you Posted
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SJSU Internet
February 21, 2005
MONDAY!:.. Woo… I can’t believe it.. Yesterday.. (Sunday).. I slept all day long.. I haven’t done that since high school.!.. Afterwards, however I had this horrible back & chest pain, probably due to my lazyness. I wonder.. How do lazy people survive?.. The hell with that question.. I don’t think you can answer that unless u survived a lazy life.. And I think most people live a fascinating life. (weather or not they believe so)..
Today I went though all my clothes.. And threw out anything I haven’t worn in 3 months.. I figured.. That if I didn’t wear it in the past three months.. I’d probably never wear it again. I have a routine fashion throughout the week, that I think most people have caught onto.. All I wear are my “NVIDIA shirts, and jeans”.. that’s just for work.. I do, have my night club ert-fits (outfits).. That I’ve worn more than one occasion. *okay. I’m glazzing off the subject.. ANYWAYS,,,* So before I went to the store, I gathered all my clothes that I was gonna throw out, and put them in a black bag, then tossed them in my apartment dumpsters. Jumped in my jeep- put my glasses on- snapped my seatbelt- and peeled out..
Later on, I pulled up to my place, and saw this homeless guy going through the trash. He didn’t hesitate when I drove up to my parking space ( which is near the dumpster) . . I saw that he was gathering ALL of the clothes I threw out. - and was putting my pants up to his waist to see if they’d fit. .. ..I stopped to think that, I probably made somebody’s day.. I looked at the guy. And wondered if he knew that those clothes used to be mine.. I WANTED MY CLOTHES BACK!!.. -Just kidding…
I supposed to do my taxes today for the first time!.. I have an appointment at 6 o’clock w/ two of my other friends… hopefully I make a pretty penny. The girl who is gonna do my taxes, I met during school last semester. “Patty”.. humm….- I have a feeling that she may raise another lever with me.. She might be a keeper.
Anyhow.. I better go.. I’ll need to take a shower before my friends come over to my place.
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